lying awake at night

2nd jan
1.06 pm

It’s the new year…
Again..
Hurm, did i lived thru last year doing all the things i'm suppose to do..
Was everything i did worth the time..
I still wonder..
Was i any different..
Well, yeah if u wanna count my age..
I am different
Mostly the part where i think i am seeing the world in whole different perspective..
Seems like what i've said n sworn to all my life before this really got me huh..
Life is so amazing
God is amazing

So, here i am stuck writing this… whatever u call it…
I dun care if it sounds lame or what..i am lame.. All i care about is keredhaaN Allah
So, first thing first is to organize my daily routine... prioritize some stuff.. Getting myself together..
If i can do all this, i noe i can pull it togetha..

Apart from that, azam tahun baru!! As cliché as it may sound, i reaLLY want to have some.. So that i noe where i'm heading to, at least… not for perfection, but for the better ..

1. Just go to all the classes n lectures, no matter what ppl say, n how boring it is, coz rite now, that's your responsibility, kalo lecture tu informative pun, tapi tuhan tak redha, x masuk jugak pape dlm otak btul x? Remember this line always " aku nak (fill in the blank) lecture or class kerana nak mencari keredhaan Allah" so, if it doesn't suit, don't do it… simple..
2. Understand other ppl better, u noe ppl r allowed to be different, duh, so spend some time learning them n sacrifice some ego n some laziness… u noe there's nothing to lose.. Some ppl are born to be overly sensitive, lack sensitivity, attention seeking n incapability to entertain themselves.. N some other stuff.. So lived with it if u can't tell them to tolerate… the world is full of colours.. Suck the fact..
3. try to be committed in just ALL the things u r doing.. U noe you r the type of person who can easily put things off in the middle.. DON'T DO THAT.. Maybe, i should keep my choc intake low, coz i remember gulyaev once said, choc makes a person's will power to lessen.. Huhu..
4. Explore moscow, Moscow is such a big place.. (huhu, but i hate the cold weather)
5. Don't get in trouble wif the NEIGHBOUR.. It's their country, need i say more
6. Kurangkan gula dlm makanan, tambahkan manis dlm senyuman… always true
7. Jimatkan air.. Huhu..
8. Try out more recipes, so that u can show off to your sister!! i'm mean.. So that my parents will be proud to hv a daughter like me… haha
9. Try to be less "cheerful", in public of course, i'm sorry but i wish to stay the same when there's only gurls n family around.. Hate to say it but i love myself to throw it out away, all the better n the worst side of me.. Including the lying part.. Hey, i'm sorry for all the bad times.. Sincerely from my heart..
10. Listen to ppl, be more sensitive to ppl around u, coz u r not always right!! U r really bad at listening.. That ego is not going to make you the king of the world.. Or queen i suppose, in my case….
11. Limit yourself to computer games, allowed dosage : 30 minutes on weekdays n 1 hour on weekend
12. Get yourself a driving license, don't procrastinate
13. N more to come.. U can add also.. Help me in becoming a better person..
14. N some other stuff i'm never going to write publicly.. haha

Comments

z.a.z said…
"...attending all lectures and classes.."

this one is the best and common azam for each year..and even for each semester..huhu~

gambatte!!!