Saturday, November 1, 2008

True Love

Salam… Hee.. suddenly the mood to write came… our topic ----> love… yup… like it or not.. It's our topic for today..

So y love? Firstly, we just talked about field of love in psychology class recently… n secondly, today i went to my friend's room to use their microwave oven.. It so happen they were having usrah… so join je dengar skali… and they had a game n it was about love… that's y i'm gonna talk about it 2day, okey?

Let's warm up first… what is love? I can't put it in words because to me it's very subjective… i love my parents.. N i love my friends… n i love my black tshirt… n i show my love towards all these in different ways… hurm… what about love towards god?? Selalu tak sebelum ni orang cakap buat something-something because of Allah… mkn kerana Allah.. Buat homework kerana Allah… hurm, actually i always ask myself macam mana nak buat kerana Allah… is it sufficient enough if dalam hati niat " okay, aku kemas bilik ni kerana Allah"…tapi macam tak rasa or macam org kata "tak feel"… so how do we develop that "feel"? How??

1. During usrah just now, one of my mates shared what she got from her psychology class… the lecturer made a statement ---> we have two kinds of love : a child love and an adult love

A child love is just like when we were small.. We love somebody because they give us protection, they give us things that we want or like… for example, we have lots of uncles and aunties, and let say one of them always gives us sweets and presents when they sees us.. Of course we r going to love that particular uncle more than others… ryte? That's why we love our parents… because they give us protection, attention n care that we need…sebab tu kte kne dgr ckp dorg cos dorg dah jaga kte…okay...

An adult love is what some ppl like me call an unconditional love… when u love someone, no matter how bad that person is, no matter what they do to us, we still love them… no matter what ppl say about it, we r still going to love them… n we will do anything for them… merentas lautan api n belah dada punye cinta la kiranya…

Thinking back about what the teacher said, she told us that sometimes her love towards god is like a child love… she pray to god because she want something.. Because she know that He is not going to leave her… n she does whatever He ask her to do because she wants something back, which is in this case pahala… So she said, supposedly we have to have an adult love towards Him.. Tak kira la ganjarannya apa, tapi when we r told to do something, we do it… because we love him… although we get nothing in return… well, of course la kalau buat baik dpt pahala kan… but you see my point right?? We do it because of our unconditional love towards him.. Unconditionally..

2. Iman hamba, iman saudagar n iman merdeka

Iman hamba - we do something because we r afraid of the consequences in the Hereafter.. (takut dosa)
Iman saudagar - we do something to get something back in return.. (nak pahala).. Like child love
Iman merdeka - we do something because we r free to do it n because it's our right to do it n mostly because it's the right thing to do n it's what we r supposed to be doing… okay… ayat dah pusing2… i hope it's still understandable.. Heh~

3. Love is trembling happiness - Khalil Gibran (…mama did mention bout him sometime ago..)

This is something which i find very very VERY hard to achieve… we wake up at night to perform late night prayers n in the darkness we seek for forgiveness n pray to him… honestly, not every time i can reach the level of penuh kekhusyukan… to feel his "presence", to feel like He is actually listening to whatever i'm saying n to actually cry because malu dgn diri yg hina tapi Allah still dengar apa yg kita nak cakap, kita slalu lupe kat Dia, tapi Dia slalu ada biler kita nak Dia… n bila ada masa n ketikanya dapat rasa khusyuk n ketenangan yg dicari, memang rasa seronok yg amat sangat… and i always want those moments to come along again... N I belive everyone is looking for it too.. The level of happiness that makes u trembles… hurm…

4. Love and doubt have never been on speaking terms - Khalil Gibran (again..)

This can actually be a benchmark for us to know how much we actually love Him… When we have no doubt on whatever we are told to do, then there must be love… simple… yet meaningful…

5. Love possesses not nor will it be possessed, for love is sufficient unto LOVE - Khalil Gibran (again… sorry)

Okay… if it's translated into malay, it will be cinta tidak memiliki dan cinta tidak dapat dimiliki… macam jiwang sangat when it is translated… ala, janji faham sudey~ .. Kita boleh dapatkan cinta Allah sekiranya kita mencintai Dia (3:31).. Tapi kita tak boleh rasa yang kita memiliki cinta Allah… kenapa? Sebab nanti, bila ada doa kita yang tak dimakbulkan, kita tak rasa yang Allah dah tinggalkan kita, because He never did… itu mungkin cuma ujian… jadi bila kita takde rasa memiliki, kita takkan rasa kehilangan.. Btul?

Urm, talking about kehilangan… can i add something… willing to read more? Sikit je.. Actually,baru2 ni dikejutkan dengan berita ttg ayah kepada rakan seperjuangan, Fikrie, yang baru sahaja meninggal dunia.. Al- Fatihah buat arwah… sangat terkejut sebab dpt tahu hari ahad sedangkan ayahnya telah pergi jumaat malam sabtu… dia pun baru dapat tahu… tak terkata n blank sangat bila dpt msg dari luqman, rakan sebilik fikrie… x dpt nk imagine if it happens to me… trus msg mama n abah… tnye tgh watpe… dpt je msg from the both of them, rasa sebak sangat although msg tak contain anything sad… just terfikir yang sekarang i still get to hear their voices but ada org yg dah x dpt nak rasa nikmat tu… sedih kalau after this dah tak dapat nak mintak maaf pd diorang… tak dpt nak ckp how much i love them… n akan sedih n terkilan kalau tak dapat nak serve untuk diorang bila dah besar nanti… teringin la nak bawak diorang jalan2 when dah ada gaji sendiri… belikan barang yang diorang suka… mestila seronok kalau parents kte happy? Btul x? hurm… terfikir jugak, bila2 je Allah boleh tarik nyawa… sekarang kte bley lagi gelak2 la.. Bley go on9(heh~)… mana tau inilah kali terakhir ngadap laptop… hurm… ingat maut kan sunat… tambah dalam mutabaah ibadah mengingati maut kay…

oh, sebelum lupa.. my psychology lecturer pernah cerita... dulu ada org ni ada byk sgt persoalan n masalah... so die tanya sorg wise man ni...but the answers that he get will always be "you need to love"... tanya la ape pun, itula jawapannya.... then he ask, "so, how do i love? how do i learn how to love?".. the wise man said "by loving.. you learn to love by loving"... just like learning anything.. example: you learn to swim by swimming.. sama jugak dgn you learn to berdakwah dgn berdakwah... so think about it kay... till next time, insyaAllah...